The last time I checked in I was having a pretty intense mental breakdown. At the time, Graduation was just around the corner and I just was not okay mentally. However, I think I am doing better now. I am now a high school graduate and summer vacation started off relatively well.
Before I get to the topic of Graduation, the last couple days of school were quite intense. My favorite teacher had his father pass away and was gone for the remainder of the school year. So, my friends and I took it upon ourselves to put together a present for him showing our appreciation.
We had AP Testing and the one test I was most confident of was AP Stats. What test did I miss? You guessed it! I had the worst cramps from Satan himself that I wasn’t even able to form coherent sentences. Luckily Gibbs let me take the last test and I made it up. Did I pass? We’ll find out in July.
I spoke at my Anteater Academy banquet and I cried during my speech. I knew I would and I tried my best not to but that program really helped me throughout high school. I cried and according to everyone else, I made them cry too. My mom recorded it so now I have video evidence of that event happening.
Graduation felt surreal. Faustino, Jaccob, Jose, Jackie, and Kevin came to my house and we had breakfast the day of. We binged On My Block because that show changed me. It hits home and I love every aspect of it. Jaccob, Kevin, and Faustino got ready at my place and we were all slowly losing it. Graduation was only mere hours away. In just a few hours we’d be sitting in the chairs we never thought we’d sit in. Faustino drove us to school and we all met up in the baseball fields. Taking pictures and panicking over the ceremony. Seeing everyone’s grad caps was really cool. Just the day before everyone came over to my house to decorate their caps. Jackie, Karina, Jaccob, David, Roxana, Faustino, Jaccob, and Kevin were in my house passing around the glue gun and glitter. I helped put David and Jaccob’s together and they were the cutest things ever.
After receiving our diploma and walking out of the stadium we were all smiles. I hugged everyone I saw and exchanged congratulations. For some reason though, I felt like I was going to cry and nothing came out. I talked to Jose after taking a picture with him and he felt the exact same way. I mean, I made it. All my life I had people telling me I would not make it through high school and I wasn’t smart enough to do anything with my future. Making it to graduation was a big ‘ol fuck you to everyone that doubted me. It was also the reassurance to myself that if I put my mind to it, I can do it. I graduated with AP, honors, apart of CSF, National Honors Society, and Anteater Academy. I saw my parents along with my aunts and uncles and I just bawled my eyes out, I did it for them.
Summer is here and I thought I would be a lot happier about it. The first week sucked. I was at home all day with nothing to do and no food in the house. I was bored out of my mind and saw every possible youtube video that peeked my interest. David kept asking me what we were going to do and we ended up doing a bonfire at the end of the week. It was honestly the highlight of my week last week. Before showing up to the beach I had to get blood taken out at the doctors. Jackie came with me since Faustino, David, and Jaccob were picking us up at 1 and we’d make it back with barely enough time. My aunt drove us over to the office and everything went well. We showed up, sat down, and before I knew it a doctor who looked like to be in his early 20s calls my name. I walk in and sit down. He was friendly and since we were both lantino he joked around a lot. Tube and tubes of blood were taken out for tests. Just when I thought I was done he asks me, “Yvette, do you have a snapchat?”. I was so taken aback and creeped out. He was probably twenty-something and I just turned 18. I’m a patient I’m not supposed to be corned like that oh my god. I said yes and he asked to exchanged usernames, only if I wanted to of course. I didn’t really have a choice because before I knew it he was writing not only his snapchat but phone number down. He insisted I write down my number but I didn’t. All I wrote was a fake snapchat name. As I walked out he kept being too touchy and I immediately told Jackie about it. Her jaw dropped and was screaming in the hallway. Once we got in the car, my aunt was in shock that he’d be that unprofessional and to an 18 year old like me. I felt gross mainly because of the impression and vibes he gave off. Once I got home, Faustino was parked outside and I told the boys the storytime. They high-fived me for being able to do that but were also shook over the fact that he was a 20 something really out here trying to slide in my dms. Anyway, one car ride later and we made it to the beach. Everyone showed up and we were all having a good laugh. Something I hadn’t done in a very long time. No offense but I looked really cute. I was walking around the beach in shorts and a bralette and that was a milestone for me and I was confident. We got there at 1 pm and left at 10pm. The guys had the bright idea of going to In N Out right after so we did. I got home at almost 12 and woke up so tired. I did nothing all day.
Fast forward to last night, my dad had the bright idea of going to a Dodgers game. I was hyped because that’s my team and I love the sport. It’s been a long time since I was last at a Dodgers game. I told jackie and her dad came along as well. The four of us had a great time. Although they lost, we had pretty good seats.
Summer has had an interesting start. I’m currently sitting on my floor watching Jane the Virgin. I hope I go out this week becuase I don’t think I can stay at home all week again.
I am looking for a job but my lazy ass wants to stay home. Do you see how contradicting that is.
Until next time,